Do you ever feel as if you never belonged to anyone? Your mind is always thinking ahead, thinking above what’s in front of you, and you never feel tied down to the eyes of the lover in front of you? You’d find people you connect with, but they eventually leave; you find acceptance in that: Your job is done. You would help people in times of need, once they found solace, you would as well, and you would all go your separate ways; you, on to the next puzzle, and in each person you touched, you would leave a little bit of yourself, until there was nothing left of you. That’s when you realized you don’t wholly belong to anybody, not even yourself.
(still the same anon) I feel so safe now in my class, but I'm graduating from high school next year and it's scary for me to think of how I will have to talk in front of a lot of new strange people when I go to uni, you know what I mean? I'm still hoping that maybe during those few months I have, I will become supersocial and outgoing, but yeah, that's probably not gonna happen. I wish you the best of luck! I hope you can get over this somehow and be less scared and stressed and just enjoy stuff
I’m in that boat right now! Thank you very much. I think it might help to hold onto the back of an earring or gently press your nails into your palms when you’re talking. I will try this when I have to present my final projects. I keep telling myself, Girl, you will have to present in college—get yourself together!! Best of luck to you!
Hey, I used to have the same problem as you, usually with my school projects/presentations etc, which was crazy, because I was friends with most of my classmates and there wasn't anyone mean to me or so, but I was still shaking and just being unbelievably nervous, when I had to speak to all of them at once. But they were being so supportive and so nice, that I have overcome this at least at class. I still have an enormous problem to talk to crowds of strangers though :/
I was in the same exact boat as you… and still am in my classes. I’m glad you were able to overcome the problem and had the support to have done so!
I’m the type of person who can be outgoing and obnoxious, but when it comes to presenting or talking or lecturing or sharing my ideas with people for class discussions, etc, I literally shake and I can’t breathe and my voice and breath catch… I could be in front of the same people I was just obnoxious with moments ago. UGH. Is anyone else’s coping strategy putting yourself in the mindset of someone else—say, a socially facilitated person—when in this situation?
So for art class I’m currently drawing this huge piece of two cats with the use of oil pastels. The paper is bigger than me, so my teacher has all of us working outside the classroom in the hallway over lockers and walls. It’s really awesome to see people’s reactions as they walk by and see everyone working on their huge art piece. A couple of kids who were videotaping for another class put me and my kitties in their video. I even passed by another student who was trying to mimic my drawing and I felt proud because I inspired someone to try it themselves. The rest of my week has been shitty so far, but this art piece I’m working on now keeps me going :)